1. I have the fear of putting on too much weight and become fat back again.
2. Numbers on the scale means alot to me. Despite 61kg+ being my healthy weight, I rather stick to being 50kg to feel secure, and slowly lose a few pounds to be 45kg.
3. The lowest weight I've been was 46kg which was few years back and that was the time where I really splurge my money on clothes especially jeans/skinny jeans. Not being able to fit in them have been tormenting which is one of the main reason of me wanting to lose weight.


But I've realised that I'm torturing my body and upsetting it by not feeding it and doing too much cardio just to shed off the weight. I realised that I'm turning into a woman, and it's the time where the body changes almost every part of the body. I've begin to accept the fact that there's no way I can fit into the jeans and just embrace the changes.


Which is why I've stopped dieting and doing too much cardio. Now, I weigh 60kg, gaining 7kg within a month. I've been eating whatever I like, and been doing lesser cardio.

So instead of doing 8km-10km of running five times a week:

1. I run 3km/medium cardio for at least 2 days
2. Spinning class once/twice a week

Sidetrack:
Woke up @10am. Two slices of mom's nutella cheesecake. Now gonna have her Nasi Lemak. Will continue after eating.